Hey Friends! Happy almost weekend!
This week has flown by due to the holiday on Monday and I’m really looking forward to my good friend Mady’s wedding on Saturday! It will be an early start since we are driving and need to leave Vegas by 4 a.m. but it will be so worth it! There is something so special about weddings and seeing your close friend so in love. It will also be great to see a little family while we are there as well. It will be a super short weekend, but we’ll do our best to see as many family members as we can.
I finally started work again on Tuesday and it feels great to be back on stage with the cast. We had 5 weeks off and I can’t believe how fast it flew by! On that note, I have noticed that the last few days I’ve been struggling with some old challenges that stress brings up. I wonder if starting work again, I’m feeling nervous or self conscious being on stage every night. These thoughts take me back to past years of mental struggles and body complexes. I have touched on these thoughts and don’t want to complain on the blog but I feel these pressures sneaking back up. I have a fear of watching all my progress fade as I give my body a day off or eat a bowl of popcorn (Sounds crazy right?) Well, it is….Those are the type of thoughts that ran my life up until a couple of months ago and sometimes sneak back in.
How do I conquer these thoughts?
I wish I knew the answer. I’ve tried multiple ways of trying to get rid of the negative thoughts but I think the answer is counteracting the negative triggers. I’ve talked about this before and it’s important for me to catch and pay attention to what the trigger is. So what are the triggers this time around?
Insecurities at work…(The entertainment business can be a little tough and too honest.).
Back to an old schedule (Daily routine has been thrown off. Getting used to a new eating/exercise and work schedule.).
Seeing less of Carson daily (Sounds so sappy but he goes to work early and when I get home he’s ready for bed.).
Now how do I tackle these triggers? Maybe they will naturally fade as I get back into the flow of work but I’d like to get back to my comfortable, relaxed self soon. 🙂 So I am going to make the decision to be happy today and practice some yoga. Hopefully get out of this rut sooner than later:)